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In 2018, my youngest child Erika passed away at age 21. As a Christian, as a father, and as a mathematician, I struggled with many faith-related questions concerning her death while mourning and grieving with the rest of my family and friends. Where was God when Erika took her last breath? He could have stopped her from dying, but why didn’t He? Where was He when she prayed? Did He not hear her (and our) cries and prayers? Although the sudden loss was devastating and emotional pain has been excruciating, God has taught me many lessons and even given me a sense of “peace that passes through all understanding.” In particular, some mathematical concepts played a major role in healing the wounds. In this paper I will share some of these lessons and thoughts that have helped me stay close to Him.